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| Party was amazing. Thank you guys for pulling through. Yes we'll do that again Maybe sooner than you all think. So yeah here's a picture or two. I didn't get to take many though cuz like I couldnt see straight lol Those here pat 12 know what I mean.  Later
Like I said I wish I had more pictures to show you the rest of that nights events lol. Chase and Townsand passed out on my lawn. Chase got piss drunk and threw up all over >_< like outside though. Everyone else was smokin up and raping eachother lol. I was gone  AH so fun. Love you guys.
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| Hi world. Update . . . I hate everything right now. Don't get me wrong, life's not so bad ya know? But certain things aren't going the way they should. Chris is grounded, but now they wont let him on the phone. Now I can't see him, can't talk to him, it's like he's dead to me. It's depressing. You love someone so much and you are completely cut off from them. And apparently he will be grounded for a long period of time. I'd say a month or two. It hurts. We just figured out how we felt and how much we are willing to put into this and his parents had to go and undo it. I don't understand sometimes. He's almost 18, cut him a break. Soon they can't tell him what to do, then what? I need a job. Bad. I need money for myself. I need . . . . I don't know what I need. It just isn't right. I'm typing so slow right now. I don't really care, though. My head feels numb. People are trying to seperate Chris and I. I', having an amazing relationship with someone I love very much. He wont hurt me. Back off and leave it be. Accept the reality of the situation and stop trying to make it difficult. I love Chris. Be jealous. Go ahead. Personally, I don't care. You're just jealous. End of story. My moms a drunk. I hate it. My dad's ill. I hate it. Can't everyone just be fine. Why does life have to have so many questions. Why can't friends just act like friends instead of whores. I don't understand any of this. Jackie is leaving again to go live with her aunt. Holly is around but she's not someone who could understand anything i have to say about life. Not becuase she's imature, just becuase she hasn't been here yet. Chris is dead to me right now. He got accepted to a college in Ohio. Not too bad. 4-7 hours or more away. By then I could drive to see him and he said he'd visit me as often as possible, which is nice. He wants to move back to North Carolina when he gets out of college, but I've been thinking about going to college there, since I found a few I liked that aren't such high standards, but still good. I hate school. I hate Tristan James Wissler. I hate alot of people. I am so fake sometimes. Everyone pretends to be such good friends but they really aren't. Why is there temptation. I hate temptation. I want to know my family. My real family not those fake inbreds from where my mom's from. They're idiots. They can't even screw in a light bulb without it blowing up in thier faces. I don't feel like talking on the phone so noone call me until Sunday. I miss Micci. I love Micci. She's a friend. I'd do anything for her. She's always been here for me, always. She doesn't lie, she tries to spend as much time with me as possible becuase we don't cause drama. We're fun people. She's had it really rough. I miss Holly. She's not home the night that I really need someone to talk to. Not even about all this. Just about anything. She's a good friend. Always makes me laugh, always wants to hangout. She's awsome. Liam Stern is someone I can trust as well. He's honestly a really good guy. I wish I could feel like this all the time. I could surpass everything that is put in front of me. Reality is terrible. My mind's gone blank. Night
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